Since last June, I really haven't posted anything on my blog because I was able to interact with others on Facebook. Now Facebook has taken over the country in a way that MySpace can't compete. It's a social network where you can choose your level of privacy, not to mention it's taken the country by storm in the last year. Teens, parents & grandparents can all be found on Facebook; most likely half of your relatives! Go ahead & see for yourself. How many can you find?
In addition, my husband worked from home so had moments where I actually had adult conversation. Last year he started a great new job with regular hours & reasonable commute that he's very happy at. Their benefits cover 100% of vision, dental & vision. They also provide delicious lunches everyday (so employees don't have to leave the office during stock market hours) in addition to an exercise class that's taught by a trainer. It's a great change & I'm happy for him.
The kids have been growing by leaps & bounds. Son, at five years old, started kindergarten at the brand new school the county built. It has all the latest technology plus room to grow. Son's kindergarten teacher (we'll call her KT) works with the kids so well. We're very happy with her. He loves learning, his friends at school, has expressed an interest in learning spanish & surprised us a few months ago by spouting off addition problems - correctly! Now he's starting to read by sounding words out & can actually recognize a few words when we spell them when the 'adults talks'. We may have to start instant messaging them to each other because yes, we are definitely a couple who loves our technology.
Daughter is now two years old, has grown like a weed as well (although height & weight is still proportional) & now wears size 4T. She's all girl too which I love. She enjoys babies, dolls, princesses (which was the theme for her this Christmas), getting her nails painted, dressing up (loves her dresses) & insists on wearing nightgowns to bed every night (even over regular pajama sets). She's got quite the personality too - friendly, animated, funny & energetic. It seems that she'll be quite the looker with her blond hair (which is finally growing out) & blue eyes! I'm not worried though because she'll be able to hold her own too, thanks to her brother who loves to take care of & play with her. It's great watching those two play around. Oh & did I mention her opinions? Life will be quite interesting as she gets older. Strawberry shortcake is her idol, it seems & that's better than some alternatives.
My migraines resolved & I lost 40 lbs, mostly due to the side effects of my beginning migraine medication. I went all the way to a size 7, which I loved. I was busy for months cleaning out the basement & getting rid of all our baby equipment stored away since we were done with kids. Then right before Christmas we found out I was expecting our third baby naturally, which was a huge but pleasant surprise considering both our children were conceived through IVF.
Unfortunately we discovered that we the baby stopped growing at 6.5 weeks & there was no heartbeat. I was devastated. Although this baby caught us completely off guard, we were so anxious to meet our 3rd little miracle! Hearing that news was... heartbreaking. I couldn't stop crying for three days.
Two days later I had to get a D&C done which was harder than anything I've ever done in my life. It was better compared to the alternative though; I couldn't take the emotional trauma of waiting for the baby to leave my body. the thought of seeing that was beyond horrifying to me. I wanted this baby so badly & to watch it... No, I knew I wasn't strong enough for that.
After the third day, it seemed I no longer had any tears left. Now I am always so sad & the only time I smile during the day is when the kids do something to remind me how precious they are & how blessed we are to have them. I have to be strong for them but it's so hard. I'm not sleeping & want to break down all the time but it seems I used up all my tears. For now, there's no reservoir. Perhaps that's not such a bad thing.
I always wanted three, even twins, when we first started trying for children. To some two children may seem the perfect number (one for each hand) & for a long time, I agreed. Then after being perfectly happy with two (since we had our daughter) & perhaps partly because of losing this baby though, I now am anxious to have a third baby. Here is catch. 1) Hubby & I still need to have the talk about whether we try for a third & if so, we have than a less than 1% chance of conceiving on our own. The fact that it happened this time is the first & only time it's happened. 2) It would be another accident when it does because if we actively try then my body tends to fake the symptoms often. It's all very frustrating.
I hate to shake things up for us when we've been & continue to be so happy but once I've healed emotionally & physically from this miscarriage (God I hate saying that!), we'll cross that bridge together as a couple & a family.
In addition, my husband worked from home so had moments where I actually had adult conversation. Last year he started a great new job with regular hours & reasonable commute that he's very happy at. Their benefits cover 100% of vision, dental & vision. They also provide delicious lunches everyday (so employees don't have to leave the office during stock market hours) in addition to an exercise class that's taught by a trainer. It's a great change & I'm happy for him.
The kids have been growing by leaps & bounds. Son, at five years old, started kindergarten at the brand new school the county built. It has all the latest technology plus room to grow. Son's kindergarten teacher (we'll call her KT) works with the kids so well. We're very happy with her. He loves learning, his friends at school, has expressed an interest in learning spanish & surprised us a few months ago by spouting off addition problems - correctly! Now he's starting to read by sounding words out & can actually recognize a few words when we spell them when the 'adults talks'. We may have to start instant messaging them to each other because yes, we are definitely a couple who loves our technology.
Daughter is now two years old, has grown like a weed as well (although height & weight is still proportional) & now wears size 4T. She's all girl too which I love. She enjoys babies, dolls, princesses (which was the theme for her this Christmas), getting her nails painted, dressing up (loves her dresses) & insists on wearing nightgowns to bed every night (even over regular pajama sets). She's got quite the personality too - friendly, animated, funny & energetic. It seems that she'll be quite the looker with her blond hair (which is finally growing out) & blue eyes! I'm not worried though because she'll be able to hold her own too, thanks to her brother who loves to take care of & play with her. It's great watching those two play around. Oh & did I mention her opinions? Life will be quite interesting as she gets older. Strawberry shortcake is her idol, it seems & that's better than some alternatives.
My migraines resolved & I lost 40 lbs, mostly due to the side effects of my beginning migraine medication. I went all the way to a size 7, which I loved. I was busy for months cleaning out the basement & getting rid of all our baby equipment stored away since we were done with kids. Then right before Christmas we found out I was expecting our third baby naturally, which was a huge but pleasant surprise considering both our children were conceived through IVF.
Unfortunately we discovered that we the baby stopped growing at 6.5 weeks & there was no heartbeat. I was devastated. Although this baby caught us completely off guard, we were so anxious to meet our 3rd little miracle! Hearing that news was... heartbreaking. I couldn't stop crying for three days.
Two days later I had to get a D&C done which was harder than anything I've ever done in my life. It was better compared to the alternative though; I couldn't take the emotional trauma of waiting for the baby to leave my body. the thought of seeing that was beyond horrifying to me. I wanted this baby so badly & to watch it... No, I knew I wasn't strong enough for that.
After the third day, it seemed I no longer had any tears left. Now I am always so sad & the only time I smile during the day is when the kids do something to remind me how precious they are & how blessed we are to have them. I have to be strong for them but it's so hard. I'm not sleeping & want to break down all the time but it seems I used up all my tears. For now, there's no reservoir. Perhaps that's not such a bad thing.
I always wanted three, even twins, when we first started trying for children. To some two children may seem the perfect number (one for each hand) & for a long time, I agreed. Then after being perfectly happy with two (since we had our daughter) & perhaps partly because of losing this baby though, I now am anxious to have a third baby. Here is catch. 1) Hubby & I still need to have the talk about whether we try for a third & if so, we have than a less than 1% chance of conceiving on our own. The fact that it happened this time is the first & only time it's happened. 2) It would be another accident when it does because if we actively try then my body tends to fake the symptoms often. It's all very frustrating.
I hate to shake things up for us when we've been & continue to be so happy but once I've healed emotionally & physically from this miscarriage (God I hate saying that!), we'll cross that bridge together as a couple & a family.
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