Late Mourning

Saturday night I was watching one of our comedy shows. I knew that this episode was about someone on the show who was in a car accident & went into a coma. This was going to be the ending. I was almost certain she was going to die. Knowing this did not bother me.

Two-thirds of the way through the show, I started realizing that it was exactly like what happened with the passing of one of my grandparents. It was something so personal that was devastating. When it happened, I thought I dealt with it. Yet when I watched this particular episode, it seemed to hit me all over again.

This pregnancy definitely didn't handle that stress well. I started to cramp immediately & didn't stop for hours. Now I just have to learn to handle it when & if that happens again.