Stormy weather

Someone told me I was being moody & very tense these past few days. I know it's partly true & there's several reasons for it.

Reason number 1: I feel as if I'm doing everything around the house without any help these days. My hubby usually tries but he's been so busy with work, the wedding & work again.

Reason number 2: Our son is constantly testing me so I feel like I'm constantly telling him no. "Don't crawl on the coffee table." "Hands out of the garbage." "Don't pinch or hit Mommy." "Don't hit the wall with your toys." Then all someone hears is you telling your son no it makes you feel like a bad parent. When they point it out, it's makes you feel even worse. Do I let our son do things first or do I stop him before he does it like I have been doing? It's different when you're with a child for a few hours telling him no instead of telling him no ALL DAY LONG. Ugh. I wish had as much patience as my hubby has but then that's never been my virtue. Please don't get me wrong... Our son is a great kid but he's in those terrible twos & loves to climb EVERYTHING!

Reason number 3: I need time alone with my hubby to re-connect as a couple & not a parent... more than just one evening where we fall fast asleep. Just time for ourselves.

Reason number 4: Summer has just started & I'm already feeling like we're running out of time to plan the things I really want to do, like a camping weekend & a BBQ with friends. We don't even have time to plan weekends to visit the lake which I know is important to my hubby.

Reason number 5: Our yard is starting to look over-grown & needs mowing badly. I would do it but my back has been acting up again. Not to mention that it's difficult to find the time to do it without our son around. We've been so busy (again with work & weddings) that we just haven't had time.

Reason number 6: We're planning on doing our next IVF process this September & I must admit I'm a little nervous how I'm going to handle it if our son's still giving me a hard time. I keep reminding myself that we just have to get through these next couple years.

Reason number 7: It's that time & my hormones are going nuts. I feel a little crazy these days & don't have anyone around me to understand that.

And finally reason number 8: We're very stretched financially & I while I'm trying to do everything I can to help, nothing seems enough. I never thought I'd worry about paying for groceries.

These days I just wish I could take a vacation from life. Anyone care to go with me? Seriously don't mind me. I'm having a bad week & it's obviously showing.